First Time in Inpatient – pt 2

I know that the posts in this series are coming farther apart than originally planned.  The overall journey has continued to develop, and I'm hoping to have more time soon to catch up on posting and sharing everything that's been happening lately. In my last post, I left off when I was facing a decision … Continue reading First Time in Inpatient – pt 2

First Time in Inpatient

Well, it’s been longer than expected between posts, and, after what’s been going on over the past 4 weeks, what was planned to be a 2 post series may expand to 4 or 5. When we left off on my last post, I was riding in a wheelchair, accompanied by a security guard, going to … Continue reading First Time in Inpatient

When Invisible Cows Stampede

TW: Ideation & planning. If you feel the urge to harm yourself or others, please reach out for help. Back in December, I wrote a post about invisible cows, using it as a metaphor for unexpected stumbles and obstacles in my mental health journey. Well, last week, I was trampled by an invisible cow stampede. … Continue reading When Invisible Cows Stampede

A Brief Update

So, ever since giving myself the room to not follow an "every Friday" posting schedule, I've noticed that my posts have, well, trailed off.  I'm finding other things to do with my evenings and I'm not focusing as much on writing in general.  My first instinct is to get upset with myself, but, realistically, I … Continue reading A Brief Update

Is It All In Your Head?

The other day, hubby and I were discussing some mental and emotional health stuff, and we ended up on the topic of things we’ve heard from someone or another that are, well, less than helpful. Things like, “what’s wrong with you?” or “just get over it.” And then, there’s the one that can sting the … Continue reading Is It All In Your Head?

Celebrating Victories #7

It has been quite some time since I last did a victories post, since last year in fact. A big part of why I didn’t is because I haven’t been writing as much lately, what with all the challenges I had in December. So, let’s dive on in! First of all, and the biggest celebration … Continue reading Celebrating Victories #7

Holidays, Anxiety and Invisible Cows

Slopes of Mauna Kea

If you ever go to the island of Hawaiʻi and visit Mauna Kea, the tallest mountain in the state, you’ll encounter a very strange sign. As you drive up the occasionally winding road towards the visitor’s center, which sits at an elevation of 9,200 feet above sea level, you may see a sign that would … Continue reading Holidays, Anxiety and Invisible Cows

Thoughts on thoughts

Content warning: In this post, I will be discussing suicidal ideation and attempts in the abstract. However, if these are topics that are triggering to you at this point, feel free to skip this post. If you are in crisis, there are several crisis line options on my resources page, or call the Suicide Hotline … Continue reading Thoughts on thoughts

Scratching the Surface

A couple of weeks ago, I shared about my “itchies,” which have followed me over the years. In that post, and in a couple of other posts I’ve written in the past, I’ve also made reference to my history with picking (for example, in my first post and my first “Victories” post). Picking has often … Continue reading Scratching the Surface

Itching for Growth

As we were saying our family prayers this Thursday evening, I looked down and saw some sort of bug on my leg. I’m guessing a flying insect of some sort had wriggled it’s way in through a screen, or had come in with us earlier in the evening. However it came in, it was sitting … Continue reading Itching for Growth