Holidays, Anxiety and Invisible Cows

Slopes of Mauna Kea

If you ever go to the island of Hawaiʻi and visit Mauna Kea, the tallest mountain in the state, you’ll encounter a very strange sign. As you drive up the occasionally winding road towards the visitor’s center, which sits at an elevation of 9,200 feet above sea level, you may see a sign that would … Continue reading Holidays, Anxiety and Invisible Cows

Thoughts on thoughts

Content warning: In this post, I will be discussing suicidal ideation and attempts in the abstract. However, if these are topics that are triggering to you at this point, feel free to skip this post. If you are in crisis, there are several crisis line options on my resources page, or call the Suicide Hotline … Continue reading Thoughts on thoughts

Scratching the Surface

A couple of weeks ago, I shared about my “itchies,” which have followed me over the years. In that post, and in a couple of other posts I’ve written in the past, I’ve also made reference to my history with picking (for example, in my first post and my first “Victories” post). Picking has often … Continue reading Scratching the Surface

Celebrating Victories #3

I never thought writing a post celebrating progress that I’ve made so far would be so difficult, but, this week, it’s a hard one. There’s been a lot going on, and, at this point, I am focusing mostly on managing my reactions, figuring out why they’re hitting as hard as they can, and containing the … Continue reading Celebrating Victories #3

Rediscovering My Voice

Typewriter not in use

“A non-writing writer is, in fact, a monster courting insanity.” - Franz Kafka One of the reasons I started this blog is because I’ve missed writing. I went to college to get a degree in writing, and I haven’t used it at all. In fact, since I’ve graduated from college, I’ve perpetually struggled to get … Continue reading Rediscovering My Voice

“Fine” is a 4-Letter Word

Is fine an illusion?

“You keep using that word. I do not think it means what you think it means.” - The Princess Bride “I’m fine.” What does that mean, really? I mean, at least for me, when I’m actually doing alright, I’ll say so. Or, maybe I’ll even say I’m OK, or I’m good. What does “fine” even … Continue reading “Fine” is a 4-Letter Word

Noisy Thoughts

“A man talking sense to himself is no madder than a man talking nonsense not to himself.” - Tom Stoppard, Rosencrantz & Guildenstern are Dead Sometimes, I “should” all over myself, and it leads to a noisy mess in my head. Let me explain. I am a naturally curious person, and I have a pretty … Continue reading Noisy Thoughts