Potential and Positivity

Cherry blossom branches by Jason Leung

“Behold God beholding you…and smiling.” - Anthony de Mello, S.J. This past Monday, for the first time since the 14th of December, I went into the office for work. It was also the first time I’d worked at all since December 18th. Waking up to my alarm, getting dressed, packing up my work backpack with … Continue reading Potential and Positivity

Holidays, Anxiety and Invisible Cows

Slopes of Mauna Kea

If you ever go to the island of Hawaiʻi and visit Mauna Kea, the tallest mountain in the state, you’ll encounter a very strange sign. As you drive up the occasionally winding road towards the visitor’s center, which sits at an elevation of 9,200 feet above sea level, you may see a sign that would … Continue reading Holidays, Anxiety and Invisible Cows

Thoughts on thoughts

Content warning: In this post, I will be discussing suicidal ideation and attempts in the abstract. However, if these are topics that are triggering to you at this point, feel free to skip this post. If you are in crisis, there are several crisis line options on my resources page, or call the Suicide Hotline … Continue reading Thoughts on thoughts

Celebrating Victories #6 – Thanksgiving Edition

It’s been awhile since I did some celebrating, and, since yesterday was Thanksgiving here in the States, I figured it would be a good time to think about the things I can be grateful for, including some of the small, and not so small victories I’ve experienced recently. Meds. Not only have I stayed on … Continue reading Celebrating Victories #6 – Thanksgiving Edition

Scratching the Surface

A couple of weeks ago, I shared about my “itchies,” which have followed me over the years. In that post, and in a couple of other posts I’ve written in the past, I’ve also made reference to my history with picking (for example, in my first post and my first “Victories” post). Picking has often … Continue reading Scratching the Surface

NaNoWriMo – Why Not?

In past posts, I’ve mentioned some of my past experiences with NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month), and I also mentioned that I have no intention of trying to participate this year. I haven’t explored the why, though, so I thought I’d spend some time digging into it. As far as I can tell, the first … Continue reading NaNoWriMo – Why Not?

On Meds, or Off?

Assorted Meds

I had started another entry for this week, which will probably be published next week, because something else came up that I really wanted to share, and sooner rather than later. On Tuesday afternoon, I had a fairly routine appointment with my doctor. As I’m sure has been fairly obvious to my readers, I’ve been … Continue reading On Meds, or Off?

Celebrating Victories #2

Today, I'd like to celebrate the fact that I am working on the whole self-value, self-care thing.  I also have some visible victories to celebrate, and they aren't so small.  Without further ado, this episode's list! I ordered some clothes for myself from ThreadUp!  As someone who is always looking for the best deal and … Continue reading Celebrating Victories #2

Celebrating Victories

I have two modes: procrastinate all the things or do all the things. Which means it took months to decide to go to therapy, weeks to make the first appointment, but, now that I'm going, I want to finish working through all the issues as quickly as possible. Unfortunately for me, therapy doesn't work that … Continue reading Celebrating Victories