A Brief Update

So, ever since giving myself the room to not follow an "every Friday" posting schedule, I've noticed that my posts have, well, trailed off.  I'm finding other things to do with my evenings and I'm not focusing as much on writing in general.  My first instinct is to get upset with myself, but, realistically, I … Continue reading A Brief Update

Potential and Positivity

Cherry blossom branches by Jason Leung

“Behold God beholding you…and smiling.” - Anthony de Mello, S.J. This past Monday, for the first time since the 14th of December, I went into the office for work. It was also the first time I’d worked at all since December 18th. Waking up to my alarm, getting dressed, packing up my work backpack with … Continue reading Potential and Positivity

Holidays, Anxiety and Invisible Cows

Slopes of Mauna Kea

If you ever go to the island of Hawaiʻi and visit Mauna Kea, the tallest mountain in the state, you’ll encounter a very strange sign. As you drive up the occasionally winding road towards the visitor’s center, which sits at an elevation of 9,200 feet above sea level, you may see a sign that would … Continue reading Holidays, Anxiety and Invisible Cows

Heartburns Past and Present

Stormy Seas

My apologies for the late post this week. On Tuesday night, I ended up with a bad case of reflux that kept me home on Wednesday. It’s finally settling down, but it’s led to a period of reflection. I’ve had one other round with some reflux this year, and both times have aligned with certain … Continue reading Heartburns Past and Present

Life on Pause

A moment of pause.

I feel like my life has been on pause for a few weeks now. First there were the weeks (nearly 2 of them) of vigil, waiting for the inevitable end of my grandfather’s life. During that time, I was in survival mode, trying to maintain some semblance of mental health along the way, but my … Continue reading Life on Pause

Staying Busy and Relaxing

This week, in a very circuitous session with my therapist, our discussion ranged from what I did last weekend to what my friends group looks like, and have looked like in the past. To be honest, high school and college I socialized with far more people than I do now, but even then, my “close” … Continue reading Staying Busy and Relaxing

Celebrating Victories #3

I never thought writing a post celebrating progress that I’ve made so far would be so difficult, but, this week, it’s a hard one. There’s been a lot going on, and, at this point, I am focusing mostly on managing my reactions, figuring out why they’re hitting as hard as they can, and containing the … Continue reading Celebrating Victories #3

Rediscovering My Voice

Typewriter not in use

“A non-writing writer is, in fact, a monster courting insanity.” - Franz Kafka One of the reasons I started this blog is because I’ve missed writing. I went to college to get a degree in writing, and I haven’t used it at all. In fact, since I’ve graduated from college, I’ve perpetually struggled to get … Continue reading Rediscovering My Voice