I wrote the below letter to my younger self as a follow-up to some of the inner child work that I started several weeks back. Dear younger me, You are so very precious. I know that it sometimes feels like you're a mistake, since mommy keeps saying that she would have divorced daddy sooner, but … Continue reading Dear Younger Me
A few weeks back, my therapist and I were working on some EMDR around when I first started having any sort of ideation thoughts, which I started describing in a post late last year. In doing this work, and working through times in my childhood where I felt alone, she asked me to sit with … Continue reading Encountering the Inner Child
Well, it’s been quite some time since I’ve posted anything here. I’m hoping to line up a few different posts, because there is a lot I want to write about, I just haven’t felt like I’ve had the bandwidth to do much writing recently, even though I’ve been missing it. So, I might as well … Continue reading EMDR – My Experience
You know that feeling after a really intense gym session, or some other more intense physical exercise (at least, more intense than your usual)? There's a couple, right? Like the right-after feeling, when you feel drained, spent, but really good about yourself. There's also the "next day" feeling. The "next day," at least for me, … Continue reading The Next Day
TW: In this post I talk about suicidal ideation (SI) in concept, though not in detail, and about some maladaptive (non-violent, illness/injury-based) daydreams I've had over the years. So, after a hiatus of a couple of months, my therapist and I have re-entered the realm of EMDR over the past couple of weeks. Originally, I … Continue reading Shifting Focus
So, ever since giving myself the room to not follow an "every Friday" posting schedule, I've noticed that my posts have, well, trailed off. I'm finding other things to do with my evenings and I'm not focusing as much on writing in general. My first instinct is to get upset with myself, but, realistically, I … Continue reading A Brief Update
“Behold God beholding you…and smiling.” - Anthony de Mello, S.J. This past Monday, for the first time since the 14th of December, I went into the office for work. It was also the first time I’d worked at all since December 18th. Waking up to my alarm, getting dressed, packing up my work backpack with … Continue reading Potential and Positivity
If you ever go to the island of Hawaiʻi and visit Mauna Kea, the tallest mountain in the state, you’ll encounter a very strange sign. As you drive up the occasionally winding road towards the visitor’s center, which sits at an elevation of 9,200 feet above sea level, you may see a sign that would … Continue reading Holidays, Anxiety and Invisible Cows
I know my posting schedule has been, well, not as predictable lately, and there’s good cause. You see, in my day-to-day life, I work for an e-commerce company. In the gifting industry. Some of our best selling products each year are stockings and ornaments. Needless to say, work has been just a little busy lately. … Continue reading Progress and Life
Writing Out My Storms 