1 year ago today, I hit a really low low. I was ideating, and disappointed to not have the supplies on hand that I was ideating about to actually execute the plan. With my husband's help, we called my therapist and the crisis line, then made our way to the ER. 1 year ago, tonight, … Continue reading An Anniversary
Content warning: In this post, I will be discussing suicidal ideation and attempts in the abstract. However, if these are topics that are triggering to you at this point, feel free to skip this post. If you are in crisis, there are several crisis line options on my resources page, or call the Suicide Hotline … Continue reading Thoughts on thoughts
As I was looking through my past posts, and saw that it’s been a month since my last victories post, I realized it was about time for another one. “But,” doubtful, depression and anxiety-driven mental voice says, “the past month has been so tough, and you haven’t really made any forward movement. In fact, you’ve … Continue reading Celebrating Victories #5
On Thursday, August 30 at 2:33 pm PDT, my grandfather took his last breath. He had survived 2 years and 29 days without his wife of over 60 years. He outlasted and disproved just about every medical estimate given to him, from the moment the doctors told him he’d never walk or work again after … Continue reading In Loving Memory
As I alluded to in the prologue to last week’s poem, there’s a lot going on right now. Thankfully, I had planned on PTO this week, though the original plans of relaxation, maybe some family fun time, maybe even a day retreat all were put on hold, because we got news that my grandfather is … Continue reading Busy vs the Alternative
This week held 2 very different anniversaries in my life. Wednesday, August 1, 2018 was the 2nd anniversary of my grandma (Grams) being called home to Christ. Tomorrow, August 4th, is my official 10th anniversary at work. Because of scheduling and whatnot, though my co-workers took me out to celebrate on the 1st. This led … Continue reading Living in Contrast
We have normality. I repeat, we have normality. Anything you still can't cope with is therefore your own problem. - Douglas Adams What is normal? I mean, really? Growing up, my mom and I would talk and theorize that everyone in the world is actually weird. The way we saw it, the vast majority of … Continue reading What is Normal?