We all know how the saying goes. “If you want something done right, do it yourself.” In a lot of ways, I’ve lived that saying almost too well. Telling a perfectionist with trust issues something like this will result in an exhausted, drained wreck. AKA: me, most of my life. However, there is one area … Continue reading If You Want Something Done Right
You know that feeling after a really intense gym session, or some other more intense physical exercise (at least, more intense than your usual)? There's a couple, right? Like the right-after feeling, when you feel drained, spent, but really good about yourself. There's also the "next day" feeling. The "next day," at least for me, … Continue reading The Next Day
Time has been flying by this year, at least for me. Sometimes, I can hardly believe it's already almost November, that over 7 months have passed since I went into inpatient, or that I've been back to work for 3 months already, longer than I was out on leave. Other times, the day or week … Continue reading Brief Update
Wow! It's been about an eon since my last Victories post, and yet, so many victories have happened since then! Some I won't detail here, since they've been the topic of their own posts (like choosing to go inpatient and doing the Cog-IOP), but there are others that I'd like to go over, some big … Continue reading Celebrating Victories #8
I haven’t done the best job in updating my blog the past few weeks, mostly because I’ve been focused on getting the most out of this Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Intensive Outpatient Program that I’m in (aka: Cog). It can be hard, draining work challenging distortions and beliefs that you’ve been forming and protecting yourself with … Continue reading Exposure Experiment and Mickey Ears
So, ever since giving myself the room to not follow an "every Friday" posting schedule, I've noticed that my posts have, well, trailed off. I'm finding other things to do with my evenings and I'm not focusing as much on writing in general. My first instinct is to get upset with myself, but, realistically, I … Continue reading A Brief Update
It has been quite some time since I last did a victories post, since last year in fact. A big part of why I didn’t is because I haven’t been writing as much lately, what with all the challenges I had in December. So, let’s dive on in! First of all, and the biggest celebration … Continue reading Celebrating Victories #7
“Behold God beholding you…and smiling.” - Anthony de Mello, S.J. This past Monday, for the first time since the 14th of December, I went into the office for work. It was also the first time I’d worked at all since December 18th. Waking up to my alarm, getting dressed, packing up my work backpack with … Continue reading Potential and Positivity
As I sit here in my living room, next to our lit Christmas tree*, watching the original How the Grinch Stole Christmas (ie: animated Chuck Jones version) for what feels like the millionth time this year with my son, I'm thinking about New Years Eve. I was writing in my "brain dump" file, which is too … Continue reading A Special Midnight
It’s been awhile since I did some celebrating, and, since yesterday was Thanksgiving here in the States, I figured it would be a good time to think about the things I can be grateful for, including some of the small, and not so small victories I’ve experienced recently. Meds. Not only have I stayed on … Continue reading Celebrating Victories #6 – Thanksgiving Edition
Writing Out My Storms 